Well, waaaaaaay back, I did make some decisions that were doubtful... but there was one which kinda haunted me up to now... there were so many "what-ifs" regarding this particular person... the thing is, a lot of things I did was somehow related to my relationship with this person, sometime, without even thinking about the consequences... I was hurt before, and meeting the person made a lot of difference to my life back then... but somehow, there was something missing... which I couldn't put my finger on... and had to move on as I just couldn't figure it out...
And to think that only now I managed to fit in the missing "pieces" of the whole puzzle... well, there are still a few more, but well, since I've managed to see the big picture, I guess... I can understand the full puzzle now... Hm, all the wondering... the fruitless 4,5 months of searching... I now know why it was what it was...
"Dulu tu semuanya ikhlas dan penuh rasa care dan sayang... "
Alhamdulillah, I think that I can now move on.. with a lighter heart.. and understand why Allah allowed me such luxuries... I must learn to become a better person, more patient and more tolerant of others...
My love, my life... has come full circle... I am blessed, and grateful to all the trials... I look forward to more blessings from him...
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